Thank you so much just for reading my diatribe! I will follow links. Here's what's so weird: Today is absolutely gorgeous. It's my day off. I feel great. Now I feel guilty, like "why am I seeking disability?" But brain says, "and you think this is going to last???"Thanks for sharing your story. Please find a lawyer that specializes in SSI and SSDI. I don't know much about it, but I would think that finding a lawyer that can help with the paperwork and give sound advise would be wise. Here is a website for the social security admin that might help. https://www.ssa.gov/disabilityssi/ here is the site on there that tells about the difference between the two. https://www.ssa.gov/planners/disability/ I hope this helps.