Aw! Geez!!! I started tearing up because of all the kind and thoughtful responses. It has been very hard on me. Scott is beyond stressed out. He has been pushing me away. This is really hurting me. I've confronted him about it yesterday, and he mentioned that he is worried that any day now, he may hear that he doesn't have a job. He also told me that he doesn't feel like accidentally hurting me with his comments during this time of stress. I told him that I am going through the same thing, but I realize that it is beyond my control. I have learned to accept what will happen come what may. It may not be what we would like, but we'll have to deal with whatever the decision is.
I used to be very active in my faith and I am wanting to return to that. It is very hard on me because Scott is an inactive member. I have to try to manage two active toddlers during the Sacrament Meeting. It probably didn't help that I told Scott that he's been asking God for a lot of favors lately, and maybe it's time that he puts forth some effort on his part. I don't want to guilt him, but lately he is blocking everything out. He is good with the kids, but he isn't really talking to me; he avoids family functions; and he's glued to his football games. He has also been avoiding his mom. He hasn't called her in a while.
My parents are being somewhat supportive. Randy, my brother, is really being a jerk. He has sensed what is going on. I won't share much with him lately, because he's the king of overreacting. He's already threatening to confront Scott and I haven't told him a thing. Enough is enough!!!
I'm at work, but I feel yucky. Something didn't agree with me. I was so tempted to call in a substitute, but I'm starting to feel better. I got my flu shot yesterday, so my arm is good and sore. Hopefully, it will keep me safe this flu season.
Thank you again for listening to me and for showing such kindness and support. I will keep you updated when we find something out.
