I'm so lost these days. I've been on the SCD diet for 5 months and my relapse started after month 4. I attributed it to work stress, and possibly being cocky with my Imuran. Now I'm off on medical leave, on imuran and entocort, and starting humira tomorrow. My GI said this is the last thing I can try, then I have to have my colon removed. I want to do a more natural approach if I can, and prevent needing surgery! I feel like it's a lame excuse and giving up too easily to just remove it without trying harder.
I feel really discouraged and sad...and alone. I just don't know what to do anymore. I've tried finding a different job with no success yet, I'll need to go back to my old job because I need the medical benefits...but they're probably going to be able to modify my tasks. I've been exercising and doing yoga more often. I've been getting counselling. I even tried going to church and praying...which is not normal for me.
I know it's probably typical to blame yourself for this, and I find it hard not to. I feel like it's because of my personality that I have this disease. I channel my emotions to my gut, and keep things inside. I hold myself accountable for everything and am hard on myself. I just don't know how to come to terms with who I am and how to manage this disease with my personality.
I have been following SCD but am doing some things wrong. I almost think I'm torturing myself with food on purpose, by eating too many bananas, peanut butter, honey...things I know mess me up but it's like half of me doesn't care. I'm just finding it really tough. I have no support group and am learning about the diet completely by myself. I don't have a holistic practioner, and my GI or MD are both just silently supporting me with no real input. My family, friend and partner are just observing and are supportive but have no real input. I feel alone.
Is there a holistic practitioner or GI specialist who would support preventative treatment in the Toronto area or east? Is there anyone who could further guide me on my diet or holistic treatment?
I feel really discouraged and sad...and alone. I just don't know what to do anymore. I've tried finding a different job with no success yet, I'll need to go back to my old job because I need the medical benefits...but they're probably going to be able to modify my tasks. I've been exercising and doing yoga more often. I've been getting counselling. I even tried going to church and praying...which is not normal for me.
I know it's probably typical to blame yourself for this, and I find it hard not to. I feel like it's because of my personality that I have this disease. I channel my emotions to my gut, and keep things inside. I hold myself accountable for everything and am hard on myself. I just don't know how to come to terms with who I am and how to manage this disease with my personality.
I have been following SCD but am doing some things wrong. I almost think I'm torturing myself with food on purpose, by eating too many bananas, peanut butter, honey...things I know mess me up but it's like half of me doesn't care. I'm just finding it really tough. I have no support group and am learning about the diet completely by myself. I don't have a holistic practioner, and my GI or MD are both just silently supporting me with no real input. My family, friend and partner are just observing and are supportive but have no real input. I feel alone.
Is there a holistic practitioner or GI specialist who would support preventative treatment in the Toronto area or east? Is there anyone who could further guide me on my diet or holistic treatment?