Hi all..it's me!
Forwarning that this post comes with a health warning- I'm bloody miserable and can certainly out do 'Joan the Moan' lol.
To be blunt, I've had enough! Been her almost a month now and am desperate for home. Don't know when that's coming, hell I know sod all these days!
Infections certainly on the mend, cough is slowly going away, and BP remains low but stable. It's my chemo free week, but am dreading starting again next Monday. Cycle 4 of 8 awaits (yes another 13 weeks of this shit to go!), and everyone is now making me feel iller than the last. It's hard to see an end to it all.
I HATE THIS LIFE..I hate being here, I hate CD and I hate cancer. Just wish they would both find another bloody home, its not like they're welcome here!!
If only I could route this hate into fighting these damn diseases then I'm sure I would feel better. I know I need to harden up, get a bloody grip and be greatful that thing's aren't any worse right now, and more so that there are sooo many worse off than me out there, but its hard when you feel so damn tired and nauseous all the bloody time.
If you're still reading this- I did advise that it came with a health warning! lol
Right, before I say anymore and piss everyone right off, I should end this 'poor me' rant, and go get a bloody grip.
Hoping that you're all keeping well, or as well as can be.
Missing you guys,
And, aka 'Mona the moaner' xxx