Hi unxmas: Ahhhhh, I was just writing a post and I lost it because I pushed a button on my new cell phone that I should not have pushed !!!!!!! Thank u for your support and recommendations. I will talk to my pharmacist about it, she is really nice and helpful. I already take 2 Questran Packets a day, I have for years....and that has REALLY helped me to control my diarrhea.....until the antibiotics.
I feel like I am a burden to my sister. I am physically and mentally handicapped. My sister is so good to me and I will never be able to pay her back for everything she has done for me. ( I used to have a job and was very independent. I mourn the loss of my old life every day. I know that I need a new life to replace the old one....but that has not happened yet. ) Now if I travel out of town ( which I rarely, rarely do ) I have to have special considerations made for me. A hotel room with a shower with bars to hold on to, my sister is renting a recliner for me to sleep in while I at the hotel because I cannot sleep in a bed because of arthritis in my neck, hips, and shoulders. Yes, the hotel will be removing the chair and ottoman from my hotel room and Rent-A-Center is delivering a recliner to my hotel room. My sister is paying for the airline ticket, hotel, and everything while I am there.
She supported me financially for 9 months in 2012 when I was broke. I am 54 years old and she is 63 1/2. She just retired. She DOES have money, so I know that she is in no way going broke paying for my vacation and a lot of other things. She worked very, very hard for 35 years at the same company and she deserves a wonderful and happy retirement. SHE has many physical illnesses that she has to deal with and I don't know how she gets through each day herself. But she has a loving, supportive husband, a daughter, son-in-law, and 2 grand-kids and obviously some great medications for her RA. M
My mental illness issues are embarrassing for me, just having lunch with relatives is a challenge. I know my sister and Aunties love me. I want to relax on my vacation. My mom died last year and she lived in the same town as me ( as did my dad before he died in 2005 ). This has left me alone in Arizona and my sister has HER family and her own life in Idaho. I have been invited to Christmas in Idaho for the rest of my life. I don't want to ruin their Christmas and be a "downer". It WILL be so nice to get away from these same four walls in my one room apartment.
So sorry this is so long. I should be writing this on my depression website (
www.depressiontribe.con) or on another thread here. . Wishing everyone a happy and healthy holiday season. : - )