Who am I?

[frustrated and anxious]

sorry guys but this morning i am down and needing to vent about it. had yet another sleepless night with the overwhelming feeling of anxiety and flooding stress. i feel weighed down and frustrated. i was supposed tohave lunch with a friend today and i have already called and cancelled because i dont feel like being social. i dont feel like sitting a lunch pretending to be happy and smile and make small talk when the last thing that i feel is being social. i want nothing more than to crawl back in the bed, pull the covers over my head and completely shut out the world.
who is this person? this is NOT who i am? i dont even recognize this person anymore. i am only this disease.

 

[SarahAnne]

Oh hon, I hope it gets better. We all have those days where we want to pull the covers over our heads and wait it out. You are more than the disease, don't forget that. Take a nap, eat some chocolate (if you can), or just do something small to make yourself feel better. Vent here if you need to, whenever. It's really hard to meet everyone else's expectations when you don't feel well, so don't. Worry about yourself first, your friend will understand if she's really a good friend.

:hug:

 

[mizgarnet]

Sometimes you just have to crawl back under the covers and those that really care, understand. I take St. John's Wort when I get anxious and stressed. The doctor gave me Antivan when I was flaring and on steroids. We do need a little help every now and then.

Wendy

 

[scottmyster]

HI There, It's alright to feel anxiety and depressed. Sometimes this Disease will get to you if you let it. But, Sometimes you have to be strong and fight the depression off as much as possible or it will keep you stranded.I have had it for 21 years now and Bipolar Disorder(manic depression) for 8 years, so it tough. I know what your going through.It's hard to be sociable when you are not feeling well and your depressed. i am sure your friend wouldn't mind you not attending lunch. especially now, what your going through.But, you can vent anytime here in the forum. This forum is very supportive. Maybe if you go to your GP and see him maybe he can precribe you something for the depression and anxiety that your feeling right now. Even if's for a short term til you get pass your fears and get back on your feet. best wishes:hug:

 

[frustrated and anxious]

thanks so much for the support guys. i did just crawl back in the bed and pulled the covers over my head....for a little while. i let myself feel bad. but! then i made myself get up and i went to the beach for about an hour and just took a deep breath. i helped. still very anxious, but better. one day at a time right? or better yet, one hour at a time. cause it seems to change so frequently. so glad i found you guys!

 

[scottmyster]

HI Frus&anx, i am very proud of you. i know it's going to take time to adjust. But, i am pretty sure you will. Like you said one hour at a time. and we are to support you along the way. Best Wishes.