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I'm so sorry native you have to endure all you are going through with the pain and no real solutions and then to have your family treat you that way is just dispicable and sad. I am so sorry and apologize for them because someone owes you one. God be with you dear man! I hope and pray for a miracle for you!!!:ghug::hug::Karl:
 
I'm so sorry you had to go through that :(:( I'm feeling down as well :( there goes the saying you can't choose you family but you can choose your friends:( I hope they start treating you better coz you deserve so much more big hugs we are here for you. Thinking of you
 
I just can't believe what you told us.....i don't know how anyone can make fun out of a sick person.

:ghug:.we're here for you.
 
Think you misunderstood.
The fathers of the Reserve gathered for a lil fathers day dinner.
Some social service group was speakin about stomach issues. When I said my brothers...I meant all the men of my reservation who I grew up with. My brother can be a complete Jackazz at times, but he would never do that to me in public(I would pimp slapp him soo hard lol) They were na making fun of me directly, although many of em know exactly what I am going through.
IDK if that is bad or worse...They laughed , I cried. Can na stop thinkin about the laughter, I can still ear it.
Those people were na comedians, they were speaking on a issue that seems to be rippin my life apart.
I have never felt like one of them, like a normal native man. Creator made me differently.I am kind and bright, they are brute and slow.
That was the LAST event I am going to for a while. It is na for me.
It was the like the community was rubbing this in my face. There is jus so many different levels to THIS.
Really emphasized how different I am from the rest of my tribe.
 
I really wish I had the energy to stand up for myself. I let everyone walk all over me, simply because I am to tired to argue or make a big fuss. Like my brother...came over half drunk expectin me to do a load of Tech work for free. I did na have the energy to say no and start arguing with em. Drives me crazy...like why would he do that to me when I feel bad most of the time.
I hate arguing and any kind of negativity,,,however that makes oneself to passive.
My sister is mentally handicapped..I help her a lot. We help each other out as much as we can...jus wish my brother would do the same. He comes over and tells us how great his life is. Like I went to see this concert, or I went to this really expensive restaurant. While my sister and I sit at home, handicapped and broke.
Really getting on my last nerve lately.
But some days lately...I feel like I can not even help myself.
 
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I really wish I had the energy to stand up for myself. I let everyone walk all over me, simply because I am to tired to argue or make a big fuss. Like my brother...came over half drunk expectin me to do a load of Tech work for free. I did na have the energy to say no and start arguing with em. Drives me crazy...like why would he do that to me when I feel bad most of the time.
I hate arguing and any kind of negativity,,,however that makes oneself to passive.
My sister is mentally handicapped..I help her a lot. We help each other out as much as we can...jus wish my brother would do the same. He comes over and tells us how great his life is. Like I went to see this concert, or I went to this really expensive restaurant. While my sister and I sit at home, handicapped and broke.
Really getting on my last nerve lately.
But some days lately...I feel like I can not even help myself.
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Try looking at your brother as the handicapped one ,because you are obviously smarter and more sensitve to people and more caring. You can do tech work he can't understand. All those things he gets to do doesn't compare to the rewards you will get someday for your kindness and compassion. God will bless you!!!:ghug:
 
Surrounded by darkness...
Seems like it is all gettin darker.
Anyone ere ave a fistula er fissure? Reason I am askin ..
I have a bump on my butt, it will na go away. Think I ave had it for at least three months.
Sometimes it gets bigger, almost to the point where I can na sit down. It is na in the center, more to the side. Bloody hell...poopin seems like it is going through a straw. See blood every few days. Soo much pressure, in my stomach and in my life. Pressure to preform and provide for my family. Never helps when the whole reserve talks ill about me. They all think I ave taken bad drugs...they say that is the reason I ave lost soo much weight and is also why I do na work. I ave known about it for a while...
But that is messed up, they say all those things about me. Then they will come over whenever their PC er Laptop goes down.
Next week Neurologist and Dr Warner's...prey that goes well.
I thank you all for your kindness and friendship in my time of despair.

MORE bad news...My ISP has been trying to pull money out of my acct like three times?! So now instead of payin for one month of internet...I am paying for 4?! All because of a stupid holiday that was on the 20th. Bloody hell I have no money...and they want MORE.
Even the one flat screen I ave left is poopin out, video cuts in and out(sound had something to do with it). But it is like a year old. Has a warranty that Wal mart will na honor since I live on reserve where we ave no physical addresses. Hell I even paid for the protection plan. Protection plan with no protection for Natives...figures. Why ME!!!!! My life is fallin to pieces :(.
All dat on top of my stupid stomach n legs.
 
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20 th of every month...always seems to be one of my busiest time,in terms of my business. I do na know how I do all this. Really hard to do now...been going hard on PC's Laptops n desktops. Lifting, pushing,pulling...
Feel like I am forced to do this. Have no other choice. Soo much pressure now to pay the bills. Diggin a hole..keeps gettin deeper n deeper.
THC is helping...but I hurt my hip n back earlier. Still more to do.
 
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20 th of every month...always seems to be one of my busiest time,in terms of my business. I do na know how I do all this. Really hard to do now...been going hard on PC's Laptops n desktops. Lifting, pushing,pulling...
Feel like I am forced to do this. Have no other choice. Soo much pressure now to pay the bills. Diggin a hole..keeps gettin deeper n deeper.
THC is helping...but I hurt my hip n back earlier. Still more to do.
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I know it's hard, but you have to try and think postive. The more negative you talk, it's like asking for more negative things to happen. Start saying postive things about your life. It really does help make it better. Words are powerful!:ghug:
 
I got through it...But this is hard. There was this one desktop computer that gave me numerous problems to hurdle over. I used to have flat monitors ...but I lost em. Now I have big phat old monitors and very lil space / plug ins. That is what hurt me, I had to open the computer again and again. It is really hard for me to accept how I am now. My limitations are overwhelming...when I used to be like a rock.
I really wish words of positivity(which I hear everyday lately, thanks to my uncle)would heal me. But we are reminded a lot in the past few weeks of limitations. An hour ago I was sweeping my floor for about five minutes when I got a really bad feeling of pins n needles in the back of my legs. I had to quit and rest. I tried hiding it, but my uncle noticed. He told me jus to concentrate on my work. My work something I usually love doing...jus was na soo great today.I know...everything can only get better from here.
Getting bad rashes. Got it really bad on my back, arm and hands. Almost like blisters/ bumps. Then the thing near my rectum...that is really worrying me. The more I try to poo the worse that gets. It has been there for months.
Despite it all I got the jobs done lol. Almost gave up for a while. I have money to help put a lil dent in my bills.
I want and prey to get better. I can na wait for the neurologist and doctor appointment next week.
 
And I hope and pray that that appointment will give you the answers you are seeking. I am so glad you got through that difficult day. Keep smiling through and praying and trust Him to see you through and He will. I am praying for you! T:ghug:
 
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Preying a lot lately. Today is better...I went in my front yard and I was surprised to find a big wild strawberry patch. Birds seemed to be screaming their songs into my ears. Love my garden...even though I can barely eat anything I grow. soo much rain round ere...I ave na had to water for a couple weeks(Now there are MAD mosquitoes).
I have stepped down in my role as the leader of my mod team. I can barely keep my life together ...let alone lead a team of modders. I can na keep kiddin myself. I know there will be a day when I feel well enough to be THAT nativesith, but now I do na feel like him.
But I really need to concentrate on myself.
I really sympathize with any type of handicapped disability...since I know now I have one. It is na like I didnt before...now I understand it all better than I ever have. Eating, using the bathroom and jus movin round my house are overwhelming obstacles for me now.
I really need a DX for treatment and paperwork to back it all up. No treatment is what hurts me the most. This is a DISEASE .Always about some paper...
 
..I hope you get some answers soon.
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I prey for answers as well. But I can na let myself get too upset if I do any get any next visit. Soo used to being put on the shelf...I expect it(maybe too much).
Meantime...I am enjoying myself with my family(My Uncle, sons and nephew).I have a ol dog his name is Number Two, he is eight years old. Today we noticed when people walk by(We live right by the Local Store)and they do na have a dog...he will escort em there and back to my house. We all laughed at em...WHY? lol
 
Number Two is my favorite dog and best friend. He starts shaking his butt every time he lays eyes on me, so I do the same lol.
But today...OMG...we are depressed...even Number Two.
I awoke with the usual pain I usually ave round this time of the day. But my wife was violently throwing up and my youngest son was having a asthma attack. I called the ambulance...that was a few hours ago. That scared the living hell right outta me...I was in a great amount of pain...but that did na matter. My SON! I can understand my wife...she is pregnant. But my son...no one smokes in the house...yet everytime we take em to the hospital they are SURE someone is smoking in my house?! He also gets arteritus!?
This is freaking me out...his skin looks like mine...he has like the same cold syptoms I get. Please Creator do na do THIS to him...I could na stand it. I can take the pain...but he is jus a child. He seems to be going through an EXTREME version of what I went through..A lifetime of sickness with NO ANSWERS.
Top o all dis...my sweet Ma...had a nervous breakdown and is now in a Mental institution. No money and no vehicle to go see my loved ones.
I wish I could run like I used to...I want to run away from it all.
Wish I could turn into a bird and jus FLY...O Number Two...When will things get better for us?
 
Praying for you brother, hang on to the Lord and he will walk with you! Pray over your son and tell whatever it is to go in His name. God finds favor with children and I hope he sees fit to heal yours. God bless you!!!:ghug:
 
Both my Son and my wife are still in the Hospital, no word yet on what is the cause.
But I am thankful they are being taken care of.
My Ma I really do na know what to say...I am at a loss for words with her.
Stressed out ...I got the feeling in my neck again.
It wasn't a totally bad day...my uncle and I got my truck fired up. It has na been running in a few months...but it sounded good today. I jus need a few more lil things and I will be set to hit the road, finally. I am glad I never got rid of the ol Ford.
But I am a lil scared. My uncle is leaving for Calgary until the end of the month...and my wife is still in the hospital. I really must stay strong right now.
I must care for my son and daughter by myself for a couple days.
This is na easy. :(
 
Woke up feelin how I usually do.
My wife jus called...she said our son is doing better. His Oxygen level was really low, still no cause.
My wife...they say something is wrong. Could be gall bladder or kidneys. They ave done tests, but they have na admitted her. So she must buy her own food whie she is there. My son also HATES the hospital food(They jus tried giving him fish, which he hates). So the wife must really buy food for the both of em. Before she left I gave her all the money I made(A 140 dollars). I told her na to worry about it, I can and will make more.
Tomorrow is the BIG Neurologist appt EARLY in the morning. So I must have my sister sleep over to care for my children while I go to Edmonton.
I prey it all goes well.
Day two of jus myself , my son Eli and Daughter Emily( And my uncle is still round lol).
 
You are such a good man to bear all you do for others. I am so blessed to hear you now speaking so positively! You are a champion in many people's hearts, I'm sure, I will keep praying for you!:ghug:
 
Good luck hope it goes well and keep us posted. Hope your son and wife get the answers they need and you of course. Thinking of you
 
I am preyin so hard for answers now,Preyin for my mother. For my son and wife and for myself.
I know in my heart that tomorrow's appt is the ONE, I can feel it in my heart.
I feel the pinchin feelin in my neck, with pain in my stomach ,hips, knees , ankles.
I prey this brings a end to my suffering. Neurologist tomorrow and Warner two days after(Results should be in by then).
It is a struggle to stay positive when soo many things went wrong lately. But...I did make it THIS far.
 
Woke up in pain. My wife called and said they are gettin out TODAY! Horray!
But I woke up to my uncle's cookin and it does na smell good. The smell is makin me nauseous. He is ol school native who likes ol school native cookin(I am afraid to try or even ask what it is). I cleaned my kitchen , took out the garbage and mopped the floor, I can still smell it?! really have to speak with em about this...cuz I feel nauseous enough most mornings I do na need any extra. Know my wife n son will na like it, damn it. But it is NECESSARY. He is helpin me fix the truck and it will be done later today. We HAVE to get er done by Thursday, the day he leaves for Calgary I can hopefully go visit my Ma today.
 
Hope all goes well today and hooray the family is coming home! Great news!
Hope you feel better now too and take it easy now!!!:ghug:
 
How did your neurology appt go? Glad your son and wife get to come home today. I hope they are feeling better.
 
Wife n son made it home and they are feelin loads better, but no real answers.
I felt really bad today. I am sure this is inflammation, it feels like it did in January.
The neurologist...I would ave to say that was more of a check up/assessment. He did say he wants a MRI of my spine. Expectin a call, Appointment with Doctor Warner tomorrow. I really need to update her on my condition.
I prey all goes well tomorrow. We really need to finish the truck by Thursday.
One of my dogs(Threesocks) got his ear nipped by another dog. It became infected. My uncle suggested I try the native medicine(Ground Bark of a Certain tree) I ave been using on him.
He instructed me to mix it with a lil cooking oil and rub it in the wound. The infection was gone within one day?! After seeing that with my own eyes I started ingesting more myself and I swear I can feel a HUGE difference.:eek2:
I was using it before...but it is like it never worked as good til I seen it work on another being.
 
Why do they want a MRI scan of your spine?? Let us know how it goes good luck. Glad they feeling better. Sorry to hear about your dog but glad it worked. Did I read it right your taking it as well! Hope you get some answers soon
 
I have no idea why a MRI on my spine, to be honest...that visit did na go how I expected.
IDK ...doctors. Talk to Warner about it today.
Yes I am taking Native medicine, but after seeing it help my dog...I am convinced of its effectiveness. I mix some in with my tea...at the end I ingest all at the bottom.
Tastes kinda like a spruce tree lol.
 
I don't either coz your spine is nothing to do with your bowels or stomach it's baffled me I'm confused sounds like these doctors don't know what they doing to me. I'm hoping you get to see someone else who knows what they talking about. Sorry to hear it didn't go well today. Lol at least that spruce tree thing works has it eased your pain? You feeling better since taking it?
 
I will talk to Warner about the neurologist TODAY. The native medicine...really bought the level of pain down. I am set to try it again in about 5 minutes actually.
Gotta get ready to go with my brother to Edmonton.
 
Let us know what the medicine is called and can you purchase it anywhere?
So glad you are getting some relief from it, that is really amazing! Glad you have your family home too!:ghug:
 
I think that the MRI of the spine may help to rule out pain that originates from nerves in the spine, it can also look for things like MS and other forms of neuropathy and neuritis. Give the doc a chance and don't write him off yet. I know that your gut is your major problem, but he may be able to figure out something with your other pain issues and inability to walk, etc.
 
15 minutes to my appt...no way of makin it. DAMN! Trying na to let this get me down...but it is a fight I am always losing. I hate the way everything is going.
All I ave now is my native medicine...I only ave my Creator now.
IDK how how or when I can make any appt to see her.I hate my so called brother soo much right now. I can na believe him.

I am going to have to say good bye to Dr. Warner. I can na make it to Edmonton every few weeks. She really has na produced any results or given me any medication that made a difference. Dr. Dippennar really helped me and ultimately saved my life. Warner IDK...even if I did make it all I would ve got was excuses and well wishes. I like to think if she did have any results that she would ve tried to contact me.
IDK. Makin a appt with Dippennar tomorrow..it may be two months before I see him(He is in real Demand).
Warner wasted my time for almost three months or so. I ...really believed in her. :(
I am soo glad I made sure to send Dippennar a copy of all the test results I had to past few months(I suspected this would happen).
I will do the MRI...but Dippennar is the only doctor that will get the results.
Dr. Lim my GI has not called or anything. He mailed the Flouroscopy request.
This is what someone else said about him.
Every experience I've had with this doctor has been awful. He came out from my first scope told me I have sever crohn's we may need to consider surgery says he will see me in 2 weeks. Well 8 weeks later when he finally sees me he tells me well its just mild after review. He has repeatedly gotten me confused with another patient. I always end up talking with my family doctor because Dr Lims office always pushes my apts by months some times. I know a few of his other patients and they all have they same problem. He doesn't tell you much in the room if you don't have questions which you don't really know what to ask. I'm on a waiting list for another doctor and I can't wait till I don't have to deal with Dr. Lim.
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At least that person got a Dx and got to see him with a two month period, something my case does not receive.
That with more reports of his staff being rude and nasty.
I really want a different GI...like NOW.
Did some research ...and I found that a Dr, Fedrorak of the U of A is one of the top(if na the TOP) GI in Alberta. I would love and need to see HIM.
Made the appt with Dippennar...JULY 29th?!
He is at my local ER once in a while...I am going to have to phone there and see if he is one.
 
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Ask for the results of your tests. They will make a copy for you and take it with you when you go to the next GI. I ask for a copy for my records. Some places automatically give you one now here. Hope you find a new one soon!
 
Never had the option for any records. They never said here you can have this for your own records.
Really wish anything happened SOON. Do na think that is in the cards. It all seems like a gamble to me, gambling with my life. What doctors have done to me.
Everything is worse, rashes are getting soo bad now, really can na believe how bad my skin is. I do ave something for that...but it is obvisouly not helping.Makin me feel ugly on top of everything else. Wanna cover all my skin and hide from everyone. I also asked someone who has a fistula and a fissure about my bump. I am now sure it is one er the other. It feels like a raised bump that kinda popped open and bled(ALOT! And I am also sure nothing came out BUT blood.)after that the pressure kinda felt better...but it is still there. Native medicine has helped the pain...now I am contemplating jus putting some on that bump. Think I MUST. I ave nothing else.:(
MRI and dippennar is scheduled for the End of July, only the Creator knows how long it will be til the next scope. I prey I can make it that far.
I feel skinner yet my stomach still feels like it is Bloated out:(.
 
Hoping you get rid of the rash. Try the natural med and see if it works. I hope it does. Keep us posted and we'll keep praying!
 
I have always lived my life by the golden rule. However living on resevre my whole life and treating people the way I want to be treated NEVER worked out very well for me or my family.
I am na going to be Nice to anyone round ere anymore. They all take advantage of the NICE guy. Like my business, the way it is set up. It is like I give away 25 % of my sevrices for free. That extra money comes up to almost 300 a week. Why am I helping people who do na help me. They all make me do a pile a work for next to nothing.
I did it to get more business, but I ve done that. All deals are off.
My brother is the worst one, makes me fix all of his computers for nothing.( I NEVER remember aggreeing to THAT). Then when I need help he is NEVER there. He made me miss my appt, and he could na even take me to see my Ma(That hurt more than anything).
I feel soo stupid losing that kind of money ...when I needed it the most.
I am sick...and everyone is taking advantage of me. Rashes are getting worse...really do na know how to stop it. It spread all over my back and all over both arms(Even my fingers that is where it hurts the most on the finger joints).
I found some ol oinment for my Enzema(THIS HAS HAPPENED MY WHOLE LIFE)which I am trying now.
My eyes are wide open...and I hate what I am seeing. Someone even came over last night (AFTER midnight) and asked me to fix a computer for next to nothing. Then that person got mad when I said no. He even said it was his 40th birthday a few days ago?! I replied it was my 38th birthday last month, and he did na give me anything(lol).
That was the last straw ...that broke the camel's back.
 
I understand your frustrations and the need to vent this. You have been the good guy your whole life. Helping others and doing kind gestures too. God will bless you somehow for them. I too have been taken advantage of for my kindness and have always considered it a gift to God. I guess though if this is your way of making a living though, you need to start charging people what your services should cost. But don't forget to do good deeds too in the mix with people who truly need it. Not those who take advantage. This is just my opinion though. God bless native!!!:)
 
I have been doing business outta my house for about ten years now. Practically every day I did something for free. I always thought that it would pay in the end. I really have bent over backwards for some people. Even when I felt like hell, I still did what I felt I had to. But thinkin back on of this I feel soo dumb. I could ve bought a new vehicle and made my appointments. I wouldnt have lost soo much of my tech stuff. I would not have been soo overworked and underpaid.
I go out of my way for everyone, and no one has done that for me.
Feel like such a suka.:(
 
I really trained myself to be a caring person, give everyone the benefit of the doubt. I can na do that anymore. It was all good when I felt normal, but now I do na even remember what "NORMAL" feels like anymore. Pain is what I know more than anything now.
Always has too be in my life. I wish it would stop...this disease. I know..it is uncurable...what ever I have.
Soo much to deal with most days.:(
I endure...what no person should ever have to.
 
Thank you all my friends.
Second day of my new business plan and so far it is going better than I expected. I thought I would never hear the end of it raising my prices. But everyone I talked to understands my situation. I am sick with nothing but my home business. I can not afford to do any work for free. I am no longer undercutting myself.
One obstacle I must overcome, my brother. Why do I have to be the bad guy? Does this to me at the worst time. I am avoiding that argument, like I do to all. But I know that day is coming ...soon.
I woke up and found myself sleeping on my left side. That hurt, not just then...but now to. I wish I could sleep on any one of my sides without any bad feelings. I always must sleep on my back, when I try to move on a side...it gives pain that awakens me. I am not constipated...what gives?
Inflammation...is the best way I can describe it.
Raised bump is still there...but since it bled it really has not felt as bad as it did before. Rashes OMG! All over my back and sides! My arms and fingers(like blisters on my hands?!). Tried two different ointments...I have one more. Hope/prey that works...my skin is getting really bad.:(
 
Wow, I was was once accused by a doctor of being an alcoholic in denial in an ER. I thought I was probably the only one. But nope. Thanks for sharing the story. I was about 21 or 22 at the time and I was asked if I was a university student and then accused of drinking too much after I insisted I never drank. I was then ignored. I left on my own a few hours later. It was very discouraging and certainly effected how I went about trying to get help in the future. I had to go about 3 more years and about 5 more ER visits before a Crohn's diagnosis.
 
This is very discouraging ...in fact I am still dealing with that. I NEVER want to go there, even now when I have to do something like that. I am running out of my medications.
I really do na want to go there. They straight up torture me. Almost like they are angry with with for being sick all the time. IDK what to do, all I can do is prey and take my native medicine. I think I will be all right on my own, with no financial support, no doctor, and no vehicle. IDK how long it will be, if ever, until I find the cause. This is native life, I wish it was na like this.
I fight everyday, I fight my self pushing past to try and provide for my family. I have na fail them, at least I can say that.
One thing I have that has always brought a smile to my face no matter how I feel.
The GTA mod team and others at Psx Scene. They have been supporting me and my work for years. It continues in unbelievable fashion. They have started a donation fund thread to get me back working again lol.
They are na gonna stop until they have a 3.55 ps3?!
I can na believe my brothers...my REAL brothers. People I have na even met in my real life have done soo much for me. More than anyone has in my whole life. IDK how to react to all this...I love my Psx family even more than I EVER have. Means so much to me right now. They ave given me soo much...more reasons why I must fight. I made this team from nothing...now we ave come soo far. Creating new and better ways of playing.
I need to continue down my modding career. They ave reminded me of who I am and given me a powerful inspiration.
 
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sending lots of support your way. Proud to know such a hard working guy who loves his family and is doing the best that he can.

that is so good to hear about the fund.
 
Well first I ave EVERYONE here. I believe I would na be here if it was not for all the help I received here. Really helped pull me through the darkest time in my life. My brothers at the game site have always been there for me. In fact many of the mods made were made with the intention of jus trying to make me feel better. They have, always made me feel better. Jus the fact they ave suggested and are trying to make something happen is unreal.
They are soo great.:)
But most there could never really understand what I am going through.
Now I am thinkin about the tests I asked for in January. I know I asked Dippennar to test my Pancreas. I know I even asked a ER doctor. I remember thinkin it was a bile duct problem back then. My skin is really bad
(rash all over my back , stomach, arms and hands...like lil bumps almost like blisters on my hands) and the pain...starts when I lie down. Morning is the worst time...like pressure is building up from lieing down all night. When I get up the pain goes away...very slowly. Late at night is when I feel ...almost normal.
I have to point EVERY doctor in a direction. Why can they not see or suggest any tests would produce results.
I know what I need now, ECRP, the scope that goes in the Pancreas.
 
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This is very discouraging ...in fact I am still dealing with that. I NEVER want to go there, even now when I have to do something like that. I am running out of my medications.
I really do na want to go there. They straight up torture me. Almost like they are angry with with for being sick all the time. IDK what to do, all I can do is prey and take my native medicine. I think I will be all right on my own, with no financial support, no doctor, and no vehicle. IDK how long it will be, if ever, until I find the cause. This is native life, I wish it was na like this.
I fight everyday, I fight my self pushing past to try and provide for my family. I have na fail them, at least I can say that.
One thing I have that has always brought a smile to my face no matter how I feel.
The GTA mod team and others at Psx Scene. They have been supporting me and my work for years. It continues in unbelievable fashion. They have started a donation fund thread to get me back working again lol.
They are na gonna stop until they have a 3.55 ps3?!
I can na believe my brothers...my REAL brothers. People I have na even met in my real life have done soo much for me. More than anyone has in my whole life. IDK how to react to all this...I love my Psx family even more than I EVER have. Means so much to me right now. They ave given me soo much...more reasons why I must fight. I made this team from nothing...now we ave come soo far. Creating new and better ways of playing.
I need to continue down my modding career. They ave reminded me of who I am and given me a powerful inspiration.
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This is why being a good person means so much! You can only choose the way you are going to react to and treat people. The rest is on them. Your brother uses you and takes you for granted because of the type of person he is. You have decided to rise above that and that is why your Psx family values you! Family no matter what colour your skin is usually has some inconsiderate screwed up members that love to stir the pot and cause trouble. Please try your best to rise above all the petty nonsense as this can be affecting your health too. My Crohn's did not start to feel better until I stopped worrying that others were judging me. Stress and this illness definitely do not mix!:hug:
 
It is hard trying to stay positive when I am surrounded by negativity. I am wicked sick they doing nothing but make this worse. All the people that call themselves my friends and many of my family members are really negative. They bring it from their lives and try to force it into mine. I have always tried to be a good and caring person no matter how I feel. I would never say to them what they have said to me. I would NEVER disrespect someone and then turn round and ask em for something.
Many of these men are acting like women round here lol. They feel the need to comment one how I look. That is never a good thing. They have said my skin hangs and looks gross, then they ask me to fix their computer?! OMG feel like smashing it, HULK SMASH! And these are MEN? Why are they eyeballing me like that? Kinda creepy.
My so called friends...then they have the nerve to get mad at me for not wanting to go out and do stupid stuff with them. They get mad...I have no money...I never want to go out with them...they get mad I am na on Facebook. I am not on face book for that reason, as I see it as a site that promotes negativity and small minded thinking. Soo self centered... all I hear about is how they are cheating on their spouses and their spouses are cheating on them. The only time they acknowledge me is when they are badmouthing me saying I look like a pile of skin.
They are not my friends...I am going to tell em that. I do na need friends/family like that. I have had enough. All of these people I helped out in their time of need. I never thought twice about it. I never said anything that would make their situation worse.
Everything I have heard and their reactions to my situation, really disgusts me.
All these people(My brother, college friends, cousins, aunt,distant relatives,and even a few of my customers) have treated me like this.
I want them all out of my life starting TODAY. No More!
My real friends and family are on the NET. You are my family now.:hug:
 
Well said!!!:hug:

We have a lot of my husbands friends come over and l find they gossip more than ladies.:yfaint:
 
I think my new attitude/outlook on life is paying off. I FIXED MY OL FORD TRUCK! I can na believe it. My uncle and I pulled our hair out for months trying to figure out what was choking it out after 25-30 after startin it up. First we thought it was the catalic converter...so we punched a hole in it and banged it round a lil. Tried it ...but it still did that..choked out. My uncle jus gave up on it.
I had to take a step back and figure it out. Before he left he said the only other thing it could be was the coil. So I went out and bought one(like a hundred dollars?!). Then I looked at the coil...really should ve done that the other way round. I looked at it and one wire was hanging one by one thread?! I thought about it...if one of my computers wires was like that...it would na work. Soo I had to cut the end off where the bad connection was. I threaded a wire through a lil hole and twisted that up jus so I could splice it back on the the original wire. And ....it works! I did na even need a new coil. The ol one works fine...it was one wire(hangin one by a thread) that has held my truck up for over a year.
OMG...it has not died on me yet. Over a hour now with no problems. Thank you Creator for giving me this blessing right now. I needed this.
Now I jus gotta make it to town tomorrow to put on the insurance and registration. Then I could go pick up my MA...she is bustin loose tomorrow(They are voluntarily letting her her lol).
I knew it could only get better :).
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It was that one wire that held me up for soo long. The ol Ford passed every test I through at it today. We drove round the Pow Wow, about five miles from here. It made it there and back with no problems. Now I know I can see a doctor soon. Jus gotta get the paperwork for the truck.
But today I felt I pride I never felt before. The pride of fixing my own truck and knowing it works. Thank the Creator!
 
At least you'll be able to go to your appointments now and not have to rely on my anyone. I'm glad it's paid off for you
 
Thanks, I love my truck soo much lol. When I am na going anywhere I jus sit in it. I cleaned it put really good, checked all the fluid levels. Many in my neighborhood noticed I fixed it. Even though most had a hard time believing it, a few even asked me to look at their vehicles. I do na even have tools. I fixed my truck with a pair of scissors and electric tape.
Add Back yard Mechanic to my list lol.
I gave ALL my dogs a ride yesterday, that was crazy. They seemed to love it, seeing the world outside of my yard. Few people said my dogs are scary, one even said they would call the cops. For What I said he is na doing nothing to you and he is tied up...soo BRING IT lady lol.
Running out of my medication...I have to see a doctor(even in a ER). My skin and stomach are pretty bad:(, but my ol red truck makes me feel better.:)
 
So happy for you!!! Sounds like things are looking up brother! Hope you get some help for your rash and other problems. Stay in touch, we missed you!:)
 
Well...I did make it to my local ER today. I seen a doctor who I showed my rash to, he said he would prescribe something...big surprise...NOTHING. It was soo hot today sitting in my truck made my arms worse. He did a excellent job of ignoring and minimizing my pain.
I did get my proton pump and adalat XL. The doctor was quite amazed at my knowledge of medication, I have you all to thank for that.:)
But some days the pain in my stomach, legs and now rash becomes to much. It is hard to sleep and stay asleep.
I have become too used to pain and doctors like that.
17 days to go til the MRI and 19 for an actual GP appt. I am thinkin about making another appt now, after the 29th just soo I do na have to wait a month and a half to see em. But I am sure that is not allowed. When I see Dippenaar I will ask for his Email.There has to be a way to communicate with him, since situations like this are making it worse for me.
I must concentrate on my truck. Next ...steering column...since now I start it with a scissors lol. So going to Edmonton with my Uncle to get the part and get er done lol.
 
Of all the doctors and specialists I ave met, Dipenaar is the one who really listened and gave me medication that really mattered. I wish he was at the ER yesterday. Both the doctor and nurses seemed mad at me for going to the ER(Doc's exact words were"Come on , you should know better than this:), like they wanted to wait until the 29th to see my doctor. The Nurse said I should phone my doctor directly and he could rush my appt(like her doctor does for her?!). " I was like...R U KIDDING ME?!
You ave your doctors phone number?" Wen she has a appt for a month later she simply phones her doc and he makes it way earlier.
I could na help but think about that while I squirmed in bed trying to sleep (Until 4am), trying to make as lil noise as possible. Felt like I was forced to wake up at gunpoint with a rifle jammed in my side at 8 am. Sleeping situation is driving me CRAZY! I have na had a dream in months.:(
It begins as soon as I lie flat, by morning it is way worse. It feels soo raw and sore...I should know better than this?! Unreal...
 
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Well...I did make it to my local ER today. I seen a doctor who I showed my rash to, he said he would prescribe something...big surprise...NOTHING. It was soo hot today sitting in my truck made my arms worse. He did a excellent job of ignoring and minimizing my pain.
I did get my proton pump and adalat XL. The doctor was quite amazed at my knowledge of medication, I have you all to thank for that.:)
But some days the pain in my stomach, legs and now rash becomes to much. It is hard to sleep and stay asleep.
I have become too used to pain and doctors like that.
17 days to go til the MRI and 19 for an actual GP appt. I am thinkin about making another appt now, after the 29th just soo I do na have to wait a month and a half to see em. But I am sure that is not allowed. When I see Dippenaar I will ask for his Email.There has to be a way to communicate with him, since situations like this are making it worse for me.
I must concentrate on my truck. Next ...steering column...since now I start it with a scissors lol. So going to Edmonton with my Uncle to get the part and get er done lol.
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Hi! Try to keep your skin out of the sun. Many people are sun sensitive and develop a rash from being out in it and it sounds like you are all the time. it happened to me once and it was so itchy, drove me nuts! Wear long sleeves if you can and wear sunscreen if you can and just see if it helps.:)There is a new product out called Instaflex and it has been proven to be the very best at helping joint pain. You can order it online and they give you the first two weeks free. It's worth a try. Sounds like you have arthritis so bad.:(
 
I found three old medications for rashes I had prescribed before. Nothing is helping that. Cotriderm is the only one that seems to be helping a lil with the cooling.
I am constantly working on my truck outside. My life is directly related to the ol ford. She fails ...I fail. I can na let that happen. I must see this through til the end.
No matter how much pain er quacks stand in my way...I will smash through em all.
Steering column today...my uncle and I are getting ready. I can na believe I will ave a key...no more scissors lol. That pair of scissors is the tool that fixed it! lol.
 
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I found three old medications for rashes I had prescribed before. Nothing is helping that. Cotriderm is the only one that seems to be helping a lil with the cooling.
I am constantly working on my truck outside. My life is directly related to the ol ford. She fails ...I fail. I can na let that happen. I must see this through til the end.
No matter how much pain er quacks stand in my way...I will smash through em all.
Steering column today...my uncle and I are getting ready. I can na believe I will ave a key...no more scissors lol. That pair of scissors is the tool that fixed it! lol.
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Do you have access to aloe vera? It is very helpful and using it on your skin is also like a sunscreen I read. Smmear the inner gel all over yous skin. My daughter and grandson once got burned so badly, they had scabs all over and pure aloe vera gel healed them and no scars at all!!!
 
You read my mind.
But ...I was thinkin. When I got the Adalat XL yesterday. I had taken it and started feeling more itchy then I was before. It is a side effect of the medication. That with constipation, diarrhea, nausea, swollen and pain ful joints, feeling of low circulation, These are all side effects of Adalat! Why would any doctor listen(if any EVER did) to me and then prescribe something that makes EVERYONE of my conditions worse. They made the everything WORSE and the minimized the pain. The ER doctor was trying to increase the dosage of adalat and he failed to give any ointment. When I got home I was fightin the the ichy feeling and walking worse then when I left.I am my own doctor, they are not helping me at all. I am never taking any medication without doing my homework on it ever again.
I am stopping that medication TODAY.
 
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You read my mind.
But ...I was thinkin. When I got the Adalat XL yesterday. I had taken it and started feeling more itchy then I was before. It is a side effect of the medication. That with constipation, diarrhea, nausea, swollen and pain ful joints, feeling of low circulation, These are all side effects of Adalat! Why would any doctor listen(if any EVER did) to me and then prescribe something that makes EVERYONE of my conditions worse. They made the everything WORSE and the minimized the pain. The ER doctor was trying to increase the dosage of adalat and he failed to give any ointment. When I got home I was fightin the the ichy feeling and walking worse then when I left.I am my own doctor, they are not helping me at all. I am never taking any medication without doing my homework on it ever again.
I am stopping that medication TODAY.
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I definately agree to stop taking that medicine now. It is so hard to know how you will react to new meds and it's hard to know if a condition is caused by crohn's or the med. See what happens in a few days and then hopefully ,you will have your answer. But in the meantime, try the aloe vera gel and see if it helps.:)
 
The past three days...I had not taken it for two. My legs did feel better in that time. When I taken the adalat I felt the feeling almost in 15 minutes after taking it. I noticed straight away it made me feel worse. I have felt every side effect of it...I am sure of that.
I know I will feel better not taking it.:)
 
Not sure if it is the same situation, but my nephews whole body breaks out in a rash because of the Crohns. His body is doing its best to handle it, and inflammation of the skin is another way it does. He is also NOT on much medication to treat it. He runs a farm and has no insurance.
Rashes can be caused from other things however:allergic reaction to medication, heat, other medical issues etc.

I have never heard of anyone fixing a pick up like you, that is pretty amazing :)
 
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I was workin on the truck again today. I had to use my hands.
I could na help but notice the rash getting worse. My right hand is pretty bad. The lil bumps have died up and are peeling/cracking my skin. My left hand? I am beginning to see the lil bumps forming right smack dab in the middle of my left palm...wth?! I have NEVER had a rash this bad. How could one have a rash on the palm?! It came outta nowhere and is itchy like crazy. The bumps are everywhere! I am now down to trying polysporin. My feet feel like they are freezing, and it is SUMMER. Front top left of my stomach feels like a alien is going to come ripping right out.
I will na let any of that stop me from working. I must keep going no matter what happens. Stronger....stronger.
 
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I was workin on the truck again today. I had to use my hands.
I could na help but notice the rash getting worse. My right hand is pretty bad. The lil bumps have died up and are peeling/cracking my skin. My left hand? I am beginning to see the lil bumps forming right smack dab in the middle of my left palm...wth?! I have NEVER had a rash this bad. How could one have a rash on the palm?! It came outta nowhere and is itchy like crazy. The bumps are everywhere! I am now down to trying polysporin. My feet feel like they are freezing, and it is SUMMER. Front top left of my stomach feels like a alien is going to come ripping right out.
I will na let any of that stop me from working. I must keep going no matter what happens. Stronger....stronger.
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Have you ever had pancreas problems? Or liver? I would get that checked out if it were me.
 
I asked two doctors(in the beginning of this year) to test my pancreas. I suspected it was that, when I read about the pain beginning when lying down. That happens every day, wish I would get at least a day off out of a week. But this is 24/7 365 days a year.
Those doctors jus bushed my suggestion off and went ahead with what they felt I needed. Those tests, to them, all proved nothing.
29th I am demanding Dippenaar begin the process to test the pancreas and liver. He was one the the doctors who bushed off that suggestion. They did not listen to word I said,them ignoring the pain proves that. I am sure I feel my pancreas doing this, no matter how much I empty my stomach, the pain is always there.
My skin getting a lil better. I am na sure if it is from not taking the adalat or jus fighting the itchy feelings. I asked the ER doctor like three time(trying to make sure I would get something for the skin), he said he prescribed something. I am thinking he lied to me.
I am going to phone my pharmacist and ask em what happened. I went there for my blood pressure and rash. Now I must try to get em to phone that doc to starighten this out.
I feel a bit better than I did yesterday, I think I could eat today. Barley ate yesterday.
My wife says my weight is constantly going down. I slowed that down, but it still happens.
OMG...jus phoned the pharmacist....she said NOTHING was prescribed. I asked him how many times. She refused to try and phone him. She says if I have a rash that is spreading that I should go to the ER. Could be a virus or infection. Go to the ER?! I JUS DID THAT! They ignored me last time, wth would make the second time any different?! Bloody hell, I do na want to go back there. That doctor said if I have any problems to phone the pharmacy and they will phone him, another damn lie.
 
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I asked two doctors(in the beginning of this year) to test my pancreas. I suspected it was that, when I read about the pain beginning when lying down. That happens every day, wish I would get at least a day off out of a week. But this is 24/7 365 days a year.
Those doctors jus bushed my suggestion off and went ahead with what they felt I needed. Those tests, to them, all proved nothing.
29th I am demanding Dippenaar begin the process to test the pancreas and liver. He was one the the doctors who bushed off that suggestion. They did not listen to word I said,them ignoring the pain proves that. I am sure I feel my pancreas doing this, no matter how much I empty my stomach, the pain is always there.
My skin getting a lil better. I am na sure if it is from not taking the adalat or jus fighting the itchy feelings. I asked the ER doctor like three time(trying to make sure I would get something for the skin), he said he prescribed something. I am thinking he lied to me.
I am going to phone my pharmacist and ask em what happened. I went there for my blood pressure and rash. Now I must try to get em to phone that doc to starighten this out.
I feel a bit better than I did yesterday, I think I could eat today. Barley ate yesterday.
My wife says my weight is constantly going down. I slowed that down, but it still happens.
OMG...jus phoned the pharmacist....she said NOTHING was prescribed. I asked him how many times. She refused to try and phone him. She says if I have a rash that is spreading that I should go to the ER. Could be a virus or infection. Go to the ER?! I JUS DID THAT! They ignored me last time, wth would make the second time any different?! Bloody hell, I do na want to go back there. That doctor said if I have any problems to phone the pharmacy and they will phone him, another damn lie.
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Call the ER you went to and tell them what happened and that there was a mix up with your prescription and be real nice. Aske them to please contact the Dr. and have him call it in again. :) Hopefully that will work. That is what I would do.
 
I honestly will try that...but first. I ave a idea...the native medicine. My ma is getting another...I am going to try mix it with cooking oil and put it on. I ave more faith in my own, then any other now. This land, my faith, the ol ways.
More n more I see this as THE test of my lifetime. I have become stronger than any native I know. The words of my grandfather and great grand father echo in my head. I am becoming a great medawakin(Medicine man). I have seen and experienced soo much in my 38 years, more then some double my age. Everything they have said is coming to life. My test, my path, my destiny. I am becoming more familiar with native and modern medicine. I believe no other native (round ere at least)has the knowledge I now possess. Only the old elders have more knowledge about our ol ways. Ways I must keep alive for my livelihood and my people. I now see the path and hope for tomorrow.
I am now seeing what I ave become. It was foretold..there would be a man born seven generations after the treaties were signed. That man would be the greatest medicine man our people ave ever known. He would lead us to better place. My elders always believed it was me...could it be? I am going to learn more from my elders, I must do this. I must share the knowledge I have with my people. Everything I have learned ere has helped me soo much, more than any. This is all for a reason...I believe it with all my heart.
Right now? I will focus on what makes me happy. Workin on my ol ford...today. I need to replace the fan belt, as the one one right now is half there lol. Even my dogs seem to love the truck. One of em ,JD, is head over heels. Jumps in every time he hears it going. He is my security system, he does the best job out f all my dogs. Since I have no way of locking it, and I still start it with a scissors. I found a steering column, but it has no key. Must wait til Monday so I can go to the Ford Dealership for a key for the column...then I can put it on. Doing this, more than anything, is really making me feel better. Doin my own thing, never mind doctors and ERs incapable of doing what they are there to do.
Doing my best to stay outta the sun.
 
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I honestly will try that...but first. I ave a idea...the native medicine. My ma is getting another...I am going to try mix it with cooking oil and put it on. I ave more faith in my own, then any other now. This land, my faith, the ol ways.
More n more I see this as THE test of my lifetime. I have become stronger than any native I know. The words of my grandfather and great grand father echo in my head. I am becoming a great medawakin(Medicine man). I have seen and experienced soo much in my 38 years, more then some double my age. Everything they have said is coming to life. My test, my path, my destiny. I am becoming more familiar with native and modern medicine. I believe no other native (round ere at least)has the knowledge I now possess. Only the old elders have more knowledge about our ol ways. Ways I must keep alive for my livelihood and my people. I now see the path and hope for tomorrow.
I am now seeing what I ave become. It was foretold..there would be a man born seven generations after the treaties were signed. That man would be the greatest medicine man our people ave ever known. He would lead us to better place. My elders always believed it was me...could it be? I am going to learn more from my elders, I must do this. I must share the knowledge I have with my people. Everything I have learned ere has helped me soo much, more than any. This is all for a reason...I believe it with all my heart.
Right now? I will focus on what makes me happy. Workin on my ol ford...today. I need to replace the fan belt, as the one one right now is half there lol. Even my dogs seem to love the truck. One of em ,JD, is head over heels. Jumps in every time he hears it going. He is my security system, he does the best job out f all my dogs. Since I have no way of locking it, and I still start it with a scissors. I found a steering column, but it has no key. Must wait til Monday so I can go to the Ford Dealership for a key for the column...then I can put it on. Doing this, more than anything, is really making me feel better. Doin my own thing, never mind doctors and ERs incapable of doing what they are there to do.
Doing my best to stay outta the sun.
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I hope you are the good Dr. they said you would be. You can learn so much through all your life experiences and also becoming a good mechanic. My son is a mechanic and was born with the talent he inherited from his Dad. He can tell you what is wrong just by telling him what the car is doing. So, let me know next time and maybe he can tell me what he thinks! Hope you keep doing better and Mom's medicine works for you!:)
 
I am in the process of taking in all the valuable information from the elders. I am going to start documenting all the medicine we are surrounded by. I am gathering samples and I will find out scientific names and their properties and effects. There is a lot of preparation, training and protocol undertaking the call. I must make my own sweat, drums, and rattles. Collect animal remains(Like a Buffalo Skull/hide and feathers of Eagle).

This will take years...which(I am sure) is why all medicine men are old. Everyone I have met is at least 50. I have about 20 years to train before I can help all others. It is na like we wake up one day and say I am a medicine man, and the tribe goes with it. Native life is filled with protocol...but many(like 95%) have lost their way.All I have experienced...makes me wanna hold on to it and never let go.
My whole life I tried to live as Canada wanted me to. I tried to live like the rest of em. I struggled and became sick at a early age. Their doctors/medicine...NEVER helped me. Everything that was thrown at me, only made it all worse.
Natives were na meant to eat all these processed foods. Everything was given to us, this land, the animals. I need to go back to that.
Ever since the Buffalo was taken from my people we have suffered and lost our way.
I dream of the day when the buffalo sound like thunder migratin the way they used to.

I did manage to put on the fanbelt, now I do na have to carry the wife's tights as a back up plan anymore.:)
 
I remember talking with a elder for a long time, in front of my house. He was amazed the amount of Native Medicine that surrounded my house. I am just trying to remember EVERYTHING he said. I remember he talked about the healing properties of this wild white flower that is everywhere round ere. I made some tea outta it and it works better than the tree bark I was using for pain.
Skin problem is still ere...I need to make a fire. Then I will get the ash to mix with cooking oil(My substitute for animal fat) for the Cree medicine for rashes. I know it will work.
Since my way of thinking and living has changed, I have changed. I see everything as it should be. Since I was born I have thought..."This is na me! This is na MY PEOPLE. This is how a Queen wants us to live". My name is a lie...it is a label that was demanded of my people. Floyd is a lie...that is na me. My last name...was given to my family by a Indian Agent of the government. My great grand father gave me my name after he took a sweat. My name is Mikwan...Cree for feather.
My name is Mikwan ,a Cree from Louis Bull "agwa Sputnowinowok", and I am tired of living a LIE.
 
Welcome Mikwan!!! White Willow Bark is a good pain reliever we can buy here but it is so expensive and I can't afford to pay that price for a small bottle. But, it does work well.:)
 
Thanks for the recognition on my Cree name. Thanks soo much for the willow bark, I will share my findings when I ave more data/results. I do feel stronger using it.
Kinda feel bad...jus had to put my foot down. My sister...ever since I fixed the truck.
She has been drunk twice!? Two times since then I had to put up with drunken nonsense. Had a rough night...the pain was really bad. Makes it all worse when there is a party next door making my dogs go crazy.
I informed her...that is na why I fixed it. I did it, so we can do what we have to do. Not so we can do negative things like drinking and booze runs. Ere I am ...under the hood EVERYDAY. While those round me think it is bloody PARTY TIME.
I wish , at least, one person round me would think and feel as I do. There is no one like me.
Feel so alone...
 
You are never alone even though you may feel that way. The Creator is always with you and you just need say His name and ask His angels to help you!!!:hug:
 
Wish I did na feel so alone. Taking a break from the truck today. Do na have enough for anything today. If those round me actually helped out ...I would ave been done. But I can na make anyone do anything.
Tried eating last night, really wish I had na tried that. Bleeding since last night.
I am going to try and Phone Dr. Lim's office. Is that it? I mean ...no call no mail.
He did a scope and ordered a Fluoroscopy and I never hear from him again.
It has almost been a week now, I have not taken any modern medication.
 
Call and get the results Mikwan and see what they show. I am hoping they at least provide you with some sort of answer to why you are suffering so much.
Are you still doing the natural medicines? Have you ever tried drinking aloe vera gel. Not the whole leaf, but the inner gel? You can buy organic at Walmart from company called Earthbound. It is 8.00 a big bottle and you just drink a little everyday. It is helpful in many ways. God bless and let us know results!:)
 
I have seen it and I will try. I did jus get a call from the Royal Alec Hospital booking me for the 27th.
Once my son was really sick. We were shipped to Calgary. There it seemed like they could do nothing for him. Then we moved em to the Royal Alec where he got better as soon as we got there. Emergency already has me booked and I will be in the imaging dept. After the MRI...I will go back through the ER to see a Doctor there. At the very least...I can get my skin under control.
27th ...10 days to go.
 
Good luck hope you get the answers/treatment you need let us know hopefully they won't refuse to treat you. Thinking of you keep us posted
 
Feel pretty bad.
My side ache...now feels like a stab wound. Feet feel cold. Top of my body is like covered in rashes. I can feel my appetite...like gone.
Taking native medicine and working on my truck makes me feel better.
Also knowing I have a daughter on the way, gives me a warm feelin inside.
 
Tell them all of your symptoms and what's been happening over months/yrs if it helps write it all down. Hopefully they'll be able to diagnose you and treat you. Then you'll be able to get on with your life pain free. Hoping they listen to you and do the appropriate tests you need. Congrats on daughter I didn't know you knew what you's were having. Unless I missed a post again..
 
Rash is now covering my left side...where the pain is always centered(It is literally covering it?!). I notice more pain when I eat...so I try to take it easy. I try to manage all my health problems the best way I can.
Over coming obstacles like flat tires. changed so many tires. Up n down with the jack and crosswrench. Had to be done. Truck is slowly getting better. I am getting better fixing and upkeeping my vehicle.
Another downer...remember how I was saying I was losing all of my stuff. Well ...today I had enough to get one of em back. My Ps Vita...got it out of the Pawn. But it has a cracked screen now, a touchscreen its useless when it is cracked.. When I brought it there they check it out to make sure it worked....there was no crack. I paid like 200 for a brick. Owner refuses to do anything about it. Got soo mad. My kids love that game...now I have to send it to Sony and hope it does na cost me too much.
200 brick.
Help me Sony!
 
Hope Sony gives you a break and fixes it cheap. When is your little girl due? That is worth being so happy about!:heart::heart::heart:Wonderful news!
Hope your rash gets better very soon!:)
 
Rash? is kinda getting better. Idk if it is really....left arm seems a lil better.
I have a friend in Edmonton, he is a genius. But he says the screen alone will cost 150. He can have it done in a hour, whereas sony will take weeks.
Then my laptop....keyboard jus went, which is why I have na been here for a couple days.
Thinkin of a new business venture...since I need more money.
My daughter? Will be sometime round October/November. My children are the world to me. I will never let them down. I want to fix their vita. I need to buy a Moss bag for my daughter before she arrives. My wife wants me to give the name...I am thinkin Elizabeth Stormchild (born in my time of storms) :)...I always liked the name Elizabeth. But again...it seems like we are forced to give a English name. Cree names are jus one word. English she will have three?!
She is my Stormchild sent to me by the creator, she reminds me of who I am and why I am here.
 
Sounds wonderful. This life was not always meant to be easy or we would never grow to be what the Creator wants us to be. :) Suffering makes us weak and He is strong! So he gets the control, not us! I am so happy for your stormchild! Strong name! It is ok to name her whatever you want. Everyone else in this country does. Even celebrities. So feel free to! May God bless you and keep you and may you be well soon!
 
I have dug soo deep since I brought my truck back to life.
Did the ignition coil,catalitic converter, front brakes, tires all round, air filter, oil filter, oil change,Spark plug wires,wiring(radio+speakers),rear view mirror,door handles and window handles and front sway bar bracket. The bracket I did yesterday and that was hard. Had to pound it right off the frame of the truck. But it is done, and now it rides like it should. No more banging sound when I roll over a lil bump.
Think I may ave hurt myself er worked too hard. I woke up feeling like the left front of my stomach was gonna explode(Can still feel it). Had to push pull and drag my truck.
MRI on saturday, and I am going to see a doctor there after the MRI.
I know Creator will make it happen :).
 

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